Hey Hey Hey
I have been slacking and for that I apologize. I’m not out of the scene, I promise. Things have just been crazy in my life as of late. Trevor and I have broken up and although we were supposedly working towards getting back together, I don’t think that’s going to happen. I’m trying my hardest to find acceptance. I think I will be okay, I’ve gone through this 3 other times with him, I shouldn’t be surprised that it happened again.
On a positive note, I’ve been working — yes I got a JOB! I’m working at The Union Station, which is the daycare I used to work at 4 years ago or so. I LOVE my job very much and I feel happier now that I’m working. I’m a full-time teacher in the toddler room which is the 1-year-olds. They’re a ton of fun and never get boring. Everyday always brings something new and the babies keep me happy.
I joined the gym as well, which is great! It makes me feel good about myself. I’ve been going to church and surrounding myself with positive people. I’m very thankful for the friends and family that I have.
I’m going to work on changing the layout soon and start blogging more again. 
I hope to see you guys around.
Pregnant? Think About Cord Blood Banking
This is a Sponsored post written by me on behalf of CryoCell International for SocialSpark. All opinions are 100% mine.
If you are pregnant or perhaps someone you’re close to is pregnant maybe you should consider saving the blood from your baby’s umbilical cord in order to protect it from many diseases in the future. Maybe you’ve already considered it or it’s crossed your mind, but it could be worth it in the long run. It could even save your baby’s life down the road.
I know if I had a child, I would do anything possible to protect it, you should check out www.Cryo-Cell.com for more information regarding saving your baby’s umbilical cord blood. You can find all sorts of information as well as testimonies regarding www.Cryo-Cell.net. I definitely would check it out, browse and read a little to see if it would be something you’d be interested in.
I’ve heard about it and have always been fascinated with what it can do. It seems like I was watching a show or maybe it was a commercial about two brothers and how the umbilical cord blood of one of the brothers ended up saving the other brothers life all because they saved the umbilical cord blood. Amazing, right?
Things Aren’t Looking Good
I apologize for my lack of blogging lately, things have been pretty rough for me. My relationship with Trevor is at a point where I’m not sure where we’re heading. I realize now that a lot of the problem was me and I blamed him for everything all the time and nagged a lot. I realize that now that things aren’t looking great and because of that I feel sick to my stomach and anxious constantly. I don’t know how to fix it or make it better, but I want to because I love him with all my heart.
What do you do? I know I can’t force him to accept an apology and to work it out. I can tell that he’s at the end of his rope and I know that it’s my fault because I pushed him to that point. I hate this because I could have prevented this from happening and instead I kept pushing and pushing.
I know the last blog talked about how awesome of a girlfriend I am, but really I see that I complain and nag a lot and that’s not awesome. I wouldn’t want to be with someone like that either. If you pray, keep me in your prayers because I sure hope we can pull through this and hopefully become a stronger couple.
I’m An Awesome Girlfriend
Trevor comes downstairs rummaging through all the cabinets saying that he is hungry so being the amazingly awesome girlfriend that I am; I cooked him a late night dinner. It may not be the healthiest thing to do since it was so late and it definitely wasn’t a healthy meal that I prepared (fried okra and fried pork chops), but he loved it nonetheless and that resulted in me feeling needed and content.
If you had asked me 5 years ago if I’d be the cooking/baking type I would have said no, that’s not my thing blah blah — now I can’t get enough of it. I bake and cook all the time and I’m always looking for new recipes to try out. I get more satisfaction out of cooking and baking when others like my food than actually consuming the food myself. It’s seriously the best feeling when you look around and see everyone enjoying what you prepared. It definitely makes slaving over the stove and mixing things up worth all the work. I especially love when someone asks for a recipe of something I made.
So, when my boyfriend comes down the stairs and starts digging through the cabinets for food; of course I’m going to jump up and offer to make something right away because it feels amazing to be needed and I like him knowing that he can count on me. I guess I like the whole “wife” role, even though I’m not a wife….yet.
We Just Had A Small Earthquake
I’m sitting here on the computer posting away on a forum and all of sudden the entire house starts shaking and I hear this rumbling sound. It turns out that Arkansas has been experiencing random earthquakes here lately, nothing too big, but still creepy.
Once it happened I ran upstairs to talk to Trevor and he said that last week sometime he felt one in the middle of the night, but I don’t recall one last week so I’m guessing I was asleep when it occurred. Apparently, the earthquake we just experienced was a 4.7 near Greenbrier, AR and I’m guessing most of the state felt it.
Crazy stuff, I hope the people around the Greenbrier area are safe and everything is okay.
